Walking Alone in the Darkness - Sentimental life cont.

After he cheated on me I decided no to have any boyfriends and just play with the boys around. I continued going to the pool every Sunday and I got to meet new boys. Which each one of them were really cute (I’m not going to lie to you) that’s what the devil’s does he put the cutest one right in front of your eyes. Each one of those boys who I used to kiss in the pool were way older than me. I was only 11 years old and they were like 20 something. I got so use to go the pool and do the same thing over and over again. That it came to a moment in which I realized that I need someone by my side, someone who will take care of me and will treat me like a princess.

I met a boy who wasn’t that cute, but he had something different that any of the other boys I met before had. He was honest, patience, friendly and treat me like a princess. For me it was the perfect thing ever, but I got so use to the boys who cheated on me all the time that I even wanted to do the same thing. My new boyfriend was a great person and I learned so many things from him, but I never like that he was too serious. I want to have someone who would be able to teach me things about life that I didn’t know. 

While I was dating this guy I met someone who I thought would be able to teach me everything I want to learn. I had the plan to do the same thing that my first boyfriend did to me, I want to cheat on my new boyfriend with the guy that I just had met and I did cheat on him. I broke a man heart! What a great deal! I though, not knowing that really hurt him. He tried to convince me to be his girlfriend again, he cried in front of me, telling me how much he loves me. But for me it was great to see a man crying because someone had hurt my heart. I wanted other man to feel what I felt.

I became the girlfriend of the guy how I met, we were together for 2 months. I fall in love with him, I loved him more than anything, but something went wrong again. Want to know what happened? He cheated on me, another boy did it again! But this time was enough for me, after he cheated on me I promised to myself that I wasn’t going to let anyone hurt my feeling again and from that moment on I was going to be the one who will hurt somebody else feelings.

I started to have boyfriends that didn’t last not even 3 weeks. I got to a moment in which I had 5 boyfriends at the same time and they were all friends. I made them fight for me, I made them break their friendship. I loved doing that! It was great for me! But was I happy doing? For a moment yes but after I would feel alone and that I will never find someone who really care about me. Someone who will really treat me like a princess. But how can someone treat me like a princess if I wasn’t valuing myself?

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